Self Esteem & Confidence

Everyone in this world whether they realize it or not they have their own self-esteem, depends on how they use it. Self esteem is almost the same as confidence, the difference is (Well I don’t really know the difference , hehehe…. This is just my own perception) self esteem is more like our pride, our self-respect, the way we appreciate ourselves, the way we value what we have in ourselves, while confidence is more like the way we respect ourselves, the way we trust in ourselves. Actually I don’t know how to describe it, so let’s just assume both of them are the same. (:p)

But I’m not gonna give up, I’ll try a simpler explanation, well let’s just say it this way, self esteem is more like theoretical, while confidence is more to the practical. I think that’s the more reasonable answer. (Hopefully I’m right ,lol).

Like example, from some people I know, they are good at poetry or literature, but they don’t have the confidence to really do it. But they know they are good at it. In fact, they do the other things except that. They just do the poetry stuff on their spare time. They don’t really use what they have. I don’t know the reason why, but maybe (this is just maybe…hehehe…) they afraid they are not gonna succeed in that, and many other aspects and reason that I don’t know. Maybe they (Once again this is maybe…OK?) want to do more real thing, because we are living in a real world, we can’t live by just doing the poetry or literature stuff ( Well, of course there are some people who really good at it and succeed). So yeah, this is so complicated.

I Think I Choose The Right Company

Today I learned a lot of things in the company, the senior designer took me to see how the machines work. And showed me what happened if i did any mistake in my design. Everything has to be checked properly and carefully, one single mistake can cause a fatal disaster. The colour is the most important thing. Luckily my senior is a nice and patient person, she taught me well, and she answered all my questions with smile. And she really don't mind if i ask a lot of questions. She said it's better than I do something without consulting her first.
Yeah, of course I have a lot to ask. (I'm new here...hehe...)
But so far I enjoy working here, the people are very friendly, even I'm the youngest one there, they didn't underestimate me. They respect me and they appreciate my skill.
I think tomorrow there will be more things to do. Everyday I learn new things. There a lot of things going on, we don't just design something,but there is more than just design. It's really more complicated than just design.
I hope I can work and learn new things here... (Wish me luck.... ;P)

Job Chosen

Wow, I finally made up my mind about which job I wanna take. After a long thoughts, considerations, imaginations, consultation, preparations (Is it necessary???) and bla bla bla, I decided to take the first job. Actually it’s kinda hard for me to decide, because both company provide the same facility, and same salary. One of them even say that next month he will raise my salary “if I perform well”.

I think about it all night, I asked my dad, he said the decision is in my hand, he just gave me advice, and a little explanation about working in company. So, after a lot of thinking I decide to take the first job, and today I’m start working.

While I was working, the second Bos called me, I don’t know what to do, I said I wanna try to work in the first place for a couple of days. He said ok, and he told me to inform him in two days whether I wanna work with him or not. The problem is I don’t know how to tell him, I don’t wanna be rude. What should I do????

Actually I’m kinda blessed and lucky because this is the first time I sent my job application letters, and two of them got accepted. And here comes the dilemma.

So actually am I lucky or unlucky???? Whatever you called it......

What Job Should I Choose??? I'm confused

I didn't post yesterday, because yesterday i had a job interview. Actually it's my first time real interview. I'm kinda nervous when they called me, because I never actually go there before. It's pretty far from my home. It took me almost one hour to get there.

When I first arrived, they give me a form to fill about my identity and my education. After that they clled my upstairs to get interviewed by the senior designer (because I applied as a designer). And I did the most stupid mistake, in the form it's written husband's/wife's name, and I write my Daddy's name on it. She asked, " Are you married? why you filled this part with your dad's name?" Oh my Gosh, It's so stupid of me. I feel embarassed of course, but luckily she is a kind person, she said it doesn't really matter. Then she started asking me some questions, I can answered mostly, but there are some questions that i can't answered. (Poor me)

Then came the bos, he asked me several questions, then he left, after that another man came to interview me, he didn't asked me lots of questions.
After that he left, he told me to wait. (Deng Deng Deng Deng....This is the most nervous time) Then the Bos came in, he said I am accepted to work there. Oh My Gosh, I'm Soooo happy. He asked me when i want to start working, so I said give me one day break. He said ok.

Then I go home, and not long after that, my phone rang. And it's from another company, he said he interested in my skill, so he offered me an interview today. And once again I am accepted to work in his company.

Now I'm confused which one to choose, two big company (I think both of them are big company) and both of them give me the same salary. Both of them are packaging company. Both of them also will give me new experience. The second company is nearer from my place though. Now I'm really really confused. If I accept the second job, what should I say to the first company, I already said tomorrow i will start working. Oh Gosh.... What should I choose????
Can someone help me?

Victoria's Secret Models

These are the pictures of gorgeous Victoria's Secret Models....

Heidi Klum

Gisele Bundchen

Alessandra Ambrosio

Marissa Miller
Izabel Goulart

Petra

Miranda Kirr

Adriana Lima

Karolina Kurkova

My favourite models are Heidi Klum And Gisele Bundchen.
So which one is your favourite???

Picturez....

L.O.V.E.

What is LOVE actually?
I never really know the answer.
Can love makes us happy?
From what i see, love is not as sweet as what we heard or see. The are lots of things going on with love.
If we face love, then we have to face :

1. The cash flow faster
2. The lying, cheating, and betraying
3. The tears falling down
4. The fights and the arguments
5. The best friend's backstabbing
6. The parents disagreement
7. The lost of friends
8. The different perspective
9. The fake feeling
10. The real personality
11. The bossy act
12. The wierd ambition
13. The misunderstanding
14. The expensive presents
15. The boundaries
16. The heart-break
17. The past came back
18. The different religion
19. The worrying
20. The no-connection
21. and so on.....

Well, of course love doesn't only have the negative parts, but also the positive parts.
And be happy for those who have felt the real love....

Miscellaneous Pictures & Design

Today I didn't take any pictures, so I just post the pictures that I took not so long ago....
The last one is my design, I edited it with photoshop my favourite design software.
With photoshop, I can get anything I want...
Thanks to photoshop creator...

Theme "Plant" Pictures

Here are some plant pictures that I took this morning....
Enjoy it, and pliz leave some comments....
Thnx a lot...

Fake People

There are lots of fake people in our life, we just don't know who they are. But believe in or not they are all among us, ready to make our life turn upside down.
Sometimes our friends pretended to be truth in front of us, while in the back they don't even like us. Maybe they are planning to ruin our life.
Or maybe the one we love keep saying how much they love us, while the fact is they are cheating behind us, betraying our love, tell bad things about us.
Being a human, we don't have to be fake, just be who we are. If we don't like to make friend with someone, just tell them we don't like to be their friend, don't pretend to be their friend and pretending to be nice with them. It doesn't benefit us and of course it will hurt their feeling.
Or maybe if we don't love someone and tired of their act, don't pretending that we love or still in love with them. Just tell them the real, and end their sufferings, don't give them empty hope that will finally hurt their feelings even more.
If we do that to someone, maybe we will get the payback for what we have done before. Maybe the payback is even worse than what we do.
So think first before we do something..

Why? Why? Why?

1. Why women are called 'chicks' or 'hottie' ? Why don't just we called them 'iguanas' or 'rhinoceros' or maybe 'lizards' ?
2. Why we called thew person who peeps as 'peeping-Tom' ? Is Tom the first person that peeps? Or anyone with the name Tom is a peeper? Why don't just we called them 'peeping-Jude Law' or 'peeping-Brad Pitt' ?
3. Why penis is called 'dick' ? Why not 'john' or 'kent' or maybe 'rick' ?
4. Why people said 'women are from Venus and men are from Mars' ?
5. Why people called it "Adam's apple" ? Why not "Adam's banana" or maybe "Adam's durian"?
6. Why people called it 'Boobs' ? Why not 'Scoops' or 'Doods' ?
   

There are still a lot of questions about that, but I already forgot.....hehe.....

Baby Picture

Here are two pictures of cute baby.....

Picture Of Temple (again)

Here are some pictures that I took few months ago. And of course I have done retouching on it. Pliz enjoy it. And I really appreciate if you would leave some comments. Thnxx....

The Power Of Music

The Power Of Music

Is there anyone in this world who doesn’t like music??

I think the answer is ‘NO’, because music has it’s on role in someone’s life. Personally, when I have a problem I used to listened to music, it really helps me a lot. As if it lighten my burden. And I can think more clearly to help me solve the problem. When I’m in a bad mood, I just listen to music, it helps me return my mood back. But I’m not the type of person who listen to music loudly, because is’t not only affects us (like in a long period, it can cause deafness), but also it cause pollution of sound in the place we live. So, I just adjust to a normal volume, so it doesn’t affects anyone.

The point is music is a very helpful element in our life.

It gives us inspiration in our life, for musicians or artists it can inspire them.

For the one who is down in sadness, music is like the cure for their soul. Helps them feel better. Even though is’t hard to explain it theoretically, but it does happen.

Like I see on Oprah the ‘Celine Dion’ edition, her songs really help her fans through through their hardest time, like lost their family’s member. Music makes them stronger to move on with their live, because life doesn’t end there. So whether you believe it or not, it does effects people life. And I really feel touched by watching how her (I mean Celine Dion) music can helps strengthen her fans life, so that they can pass through all the hard time.

So, if you have a problem, just listen to your favourite music.

Good Friend Or Bad Friend

Human is a social creature, which can’t live alone without other human. (Well, this according to the theory which I learn in primary school) Well, to make it short, we all need friends in our life. We won’t feel lonely if we have our friends around us. We can share everything with our friends. Friends can give positive effects and also negative effects. Like example :
If we make friends with smoker, well sooner or later we will become one of them, unless there’s some people who have strong self-defends to make them still unaffected and maybe can change them to be a non-smoker, but most of them will be dragged into being a smoker.
If we make friends with highly motivated people (How the hell that words come from, lol), we could either get influence by their way of living or we are the once who influenced them.
So the point is there’s nothing wrong with making friends as long as you know how to guard yourself not to be dragged down because nowadays it’s very different to find a real friend. You never know what a friend could do to you. Even though you have known them for a very long time. There are friends who can cheat on you or betray you even you have known them for a very long time. Maybe they ‘play’ with your boyfriend or girlfriend behind your back. Or maybe they talk bad about you behind your back. Or maybe they spread untrue story or rumour about you. Or maybe they reveal your darkest secret.
So making friends is very complicated, well but of course not all friends are bad. That’s why ‘they’ ( I don’t know who are they) invented the word ‘best friend forever’ or ‘BFF’.
They are the one who will always be there for you, no matter when you are sad or happy or in a big trouble. They always support you, give courage to you, they are the one who make your life brighter.
So, making friends is like gambling in Las Vegas ( hahaha….why here, gambling can be done everywhere) You never know what card you are going to get, a ‘good’ card or a ‘bad’ card. Well, the decision is in your own hand.

Macro Photography

I also like photography...

In my spare time I also try to capture things with my camera. Well, even though I'm still an amateur, i'll keep learning so that I can improve my skill. So I really hope that who see my picture will leave comment to me. I'm an open-minded person, I'll take every comment, critics, and suggestion, becoz that's what makes me better and better every day.

Here are some of my photos that i take with my camera. I use Canon Powershot A540 with 6 Mega Pixels.

And remember to leave comment, I really appreciate it. Thnx a lot....

Buddhist Temple

Here's the picture of one of the temple in Penang, Malaysia. And I already do retouching on the picture with the help of Photoshop of course, what else....

Plizzz enjoy it.... And do you mind to leave a comment....

And of course click on the google adsense...hehehe...

Thanx a lot....

Christians Versus Buddhist

Every people who have religion usually pray at their 'religion building' (Oh my gosh, i really dont know what word is that) Like the Christians pray at the church, the Moslems pray at the mosque, and the Buddhist pray at the temple. Well me, i dont know what is my religion, both my parents are Buddhist, but they sent me to Christians school. So i'm like in the middle of both of the religions. As a Christian I used go to church every Sunday, but i haven't go there for a long time. I used to go there becoz the teacher told us to go if we want our marks to be good (which is it doesn't really quite helpful with my marks, totally no effects) and beside that, there are my frens who always asked me to go together to the church. But now, they are not here anymore, after we all graduated from senior high school, we all get separated. They only return once a year, and i really miss them. Things are different now without them. They have their own life, and I have my own. (I think i get out of the topic, hehe...)

Well, back again, as a Buddhist I rarely go to temple, I rarely pray, I only pray like once a year when I visited my grandpa's grave. So, i'm really a bad Buddhist.

Actually I prefer Christian, I believe in God, but yeah now I never go to church anymore, it feels wierd when I go there, I don't know why, especialy the (what they called) Charismatic church. I ever go there once, and after that i never want to go again, the situation is like totally different from the church which my teacher told us to go. They pray aloud, they sing aloud, and I really don't feel comfortable with that. So, since I never go to church, but I do pray ( well not actually), I just pray at my heart (when i got problems). So.. I'm also a bad Christian.

And until now I just run my life without care about what religion I am.

Dun know what to write

Finally my students got their holiday and i can relax for a moment. But soon I have to get ready to find a new job. Maybe a couple more days I will send my application letter. Hopefully i got accepted to work there. Or I just send my application letter not to just one company, maybe 2 or 3 companies. The possibilities that i got hired is bigger. Right?
So beside that job "if i got hired", i still counting on my google adsense,hopefully i can get more income. So anybody who view my website, pliz click on the "google ads". Thank you so much, i really appreciate it.
I really have no idea what to write today, i don't know why, but i still post my writing.
Hopefully I can think of a better things to write tomorrow.

Job Application Letter

Well, after tired of being a private tutor for 5 years, I wanna try to find another job. But I’m confused what job fits me.

Personally, I like advertising design, but I don’t know whether I’m capable or not. ( I sound like a ‘chicken’ now, hehe….:P) Or maybe I just work at the bank as a teller, or back office, or maybe customer service. I’m really confused. Beside that, there’s a brand new five star hotel called J.W.Marriot Hotel are now recruiting a lots of staffs and a lots of positions are available, but I think none of them suits me. (Oh yah, for your information, for those who are jobless out there, try to send your application letter here, who knows you’re accepted to work there, and only for who stays in Medan, Indonesia).

Back to the topic, can someone tell me what should I do? Maybe I should just try the advertising design, I always dream to be famous advertising designer. (Yes, I am a dreamer, lol).

I had ever worked as an advertising designer before in a small growing-up gemstones company, but that only last for six months, after that I quit. Why?? Coz the bos asked me to sell the gemstones, I really hates sales job, so I quit, besides who wanna buy it, I don’t have a connection with rich people or people who love to collect gemstones. Then after half a year or more, I got a job as an embroidery designer. Only as a part-timer, and the salary is sucks, but I enjoy working there, they taught me how to use the software, and in one week or more, I already knew how to use it. I worked there more more than half a year.

Back to the topic again, I think I’ll try the advertising……

Gossip

Who doesn’t know gossip? Gossip means an untrue story about someone, whether it gives positive effects or negative effects to the “victim”. Everyone in this world is a gossiper (I don’t know whether this word really exist in dictionary or not), no matter who you are, boys or girls, men or women, kids or adults, young and old, single or married, you do gossip everyday, even when you don’t realize it. Maybe small gossip or big gossip, or even you are the “victim” itself. Well, you never know what people are going to say about you. I myself do gossip everyday, whether I realize it or not. Like example, when we saw couples are arguing, we tell our frens that maybe the boy cheat on the girl, while we don’t even have the facts or know the truth. (It is really possible though that it is the girl who cheated on the boy, or maybe other things that doesn’t have to do with ‘cheating’ stuff). Well, that’s the simple example of gossip, and it doesn’t give negative effects on the ‘victim’.

Enough about that, that gossip maybe not interesting. For me, I prefer the celebrity gossip, you can know about what’s going on in Hollywood. And if I have some spare time, I usually spend it to access trent.blogspot.com. This blog is really entertaining, you can know about the latest celebrity gossip. And sometimes I can laugh my ass out while reading the gossip and the ‘celebrity got caught by paparazzi’ picture is really funny. How do they get all those pictures, even the most ‘private’ pictures. Wow…. That must be a great paparazzi. But really, reading this blog can ’refresh’ me after working all day. So for those who likes gossip about Hollywood celebrities, just try trent.blogspot.com

Private Tutor

Private Tutor.....
That's my job for almost 5 years. It's not easy to be a private tutor, coz it take a huge responsibility. Private tutor is like a "baby sitter" in education. U have to make sure the students understand their lessons and got good marks at school. I usually tutor primary and junior high school students, coz that's the level i'm capable of, higher grade than that i usually refuse to teach them. Being a private tutor is almost like 'teacher' at school, the different is, u don't teach in front of the class and u don't face a lots of students and the happy part is u don't see them for a long time like at school. The rest is just the same. I usually teach 2-3 students at once and it takes usually 2 hours or less (Somestimes it takes more than 2 hours also, especially on the final test). I got a student who make me teach for 5 hours on Sunday. Why Sunday?? Coz their test is on Monday, and I am responsible to make them memorize all their lessons before they take the test. Moreover, the lessons are getting more difficult every year, more things to learn. So, it is not an easy job to be a private tutor. Some parents can angry if their sons or daughters failed their lessons. But luckily, from my experience, all my students' parents are nice, they don't get angry at me if their kids got red marks at school, (not becoz i'm a bad tutor or what,but coz the students are lazy and only care about games than their lessons, for them study is like hell. But not all my students are like that). They understands their kids capability of study. Like the student i mention before, well actually he's not stupid, he failed few subjects and got average marks on other subjects, but the only lesson he never fail is 'computer subject', he always got perfect mark on it.
Wow, it's a lot to write about being a private tutor, there's happy time and also the bad time. I can sit here all nite to write about it, but i think it's not a great idea. And i've been thinking to cut some of my students this new period of new class. I want to find a job, one job that I really really like. Wish me luck.

Is making blog fun?

Wow...
Finally i started my first blog...
I always curious about what's the fun in writing blog,so finally i decide to start my own blog.
Well, actually i read a book about the connection between blog, Adsense, and Dollar($). I found out that by making my own blog, i can put adsense advertisement on my blog and earn some extra dollar, only IF someone click on the ads. So, i decided to try it coz i got nothing to lose. And i see a lots of poeple had actually started it first since i don't know when. I don't even know this adsense is exist and real after i read that book. Well, some people (maybe not some but a lot of) might think i'm too late to do this, but there's a phrase that said "Better late than Never". And here i am making my own blog. But i haven't actually put the adsense on my blog yet. I still doubt it, what if after i put the adsense on my blog, nobody clicks on it. And maybe for some people who knows about it doesn't want to click it? Maybe i'll be disappointed, but i think i will still write my blog.
So,if it happens that i really put the adsense on my blog,can i ask a favor for whoever read my blog? (I hope the answer is 'Yes') Pliz click on the ads that showed up on my blog. By doing it, that's mean you have helped someone. (Oh my gosh, i sound like begging now) But i'm serious, if u read my blog, pliz spend one second to click on the ads. I'm really grateful if you do it. Thanks a lot.